Wanting What You Don't Have, When You Don't Know What You Want

Tonight I drove home and was shocked to not see my houses lit up. My heart sulked a little bit because go figure, for all my griping, I actually liked seeing them. I wondered if these houses visited my corner here and saw my ugly post? Empty, dark streets now lay waiting for spring to shed some life. Sadly, this isn't the first time I've griped about something I wanted, then changed my mind  realizing I wanted the very thing I complained about. Oh my...